the us-ghosts

slay me
with all the things you really are
covert and stealthy sweetheart
second kiss and I felt nothing
but I dream and I feel it now
and I don't get how it works
or why I just know that every
time I close my eyes I see you
and you're kissing me and
loving me and protecting me
and it's backwards you and me
not how it's supposed to be or go
when I love someone else this time around
and you're not looking in my direction
anymore and it's better this way us
as friends and me not wanting to feel you
against me and you not dragging me down
just to build me up again sick cycles in
a fucked up courtship and that's all this is
is fucked up and I can live with that but
I can't live wondering why it's you loving me
when I'm sleeping when it ought to be him.